be proud

I come from a family of go getters. There are so many people in my family who have decided that instead of chasing their dream job they would create it. I never in my wildest dreams thought I would be one of them. There is something about starting your own business that is completely and utterly terrifying. I remember before I began Amy May Paper, thinking how in the world do people do this. How do you take all of these thoughts and these dreams and turn them into an actual, profitable, operating business. 

I think that, for me, the fear I felt before I began was healthy. It kept me going, it kept me motivated and still does to this day. It encouraged me to want more for myself. And then all of the sudden day by day the logistics were being put into place and I was learning more about llc's, and taxes, and contracts... and then the real fear set in. 

What if I fail? What if  I never have another client again? What if I am horrible at executing this dream? Y'all, self doubt is crippling. I cannot even begin to explain the waves of emotion I have gone through on this journey. 

I am so lucky to have a community around me, people who have also started their own businesses; who work every day to make their dreams a reality that are constantly encouraging me. But amidst all the questions, all the stress, the doubt... all the pressure you put on yourself to succeed -there is a sense of accomplishment, a  sense of pride that far outweighs any of those overwhelming, fearful moments. 

When I was having photos done for the website {you can read more about that here}, I was working with the wonderful Alyssa Rosenheck. She was styling away an invitation suite of mine and showed me the picture she had captured on her camera. I had this moment.... I was completely overwhelmed in the best way possible. And right there in her studio - looking at that picture on her camera screen I had this moment that i will never forget. I was proud of myself. I remember looking at that picture and thinking back to the days when I wondered how in the world people created, executed, and printed an invitation suite. How in the world do you get your writing onto the computer, and then perfectly pressed onto paper {not to mention all the little steps in between}? That photo was a symbol of hard work, dedication, time, and so much love. Love for this craft, love for what I do, love for each client that allows me to capture a certain moment in their lives.  

I told Alyssa that day that I will always cherish that photo. It was one of the vert first times I thought to myself.... You did it - and you should be really proud. I think sometimes our society doesn't encourage those feelings of accomplishment. It comes across as too confident, or self righteous, when in reality in those moments are what make the  journey worth it.  All the struggle, all the worry, all the effort.  I will never forget that feeling or this photo. I have this photo framed in my office as a reminder. On the days when that darn self doubt creeps in - I can look at it and remind myself that if you put in the work you truly can achieve anything. 

So to all the doers - today give yourself some credit. Be proud of where you are in this moment and the choices you have made that have brought you this far. Give yourself a pat on the back - because you certainly deserve it. 

- X O -


Welcome to the new and improved When i first started amp a little less than a year ago there were so many details to think about. Starting your own business is so much more than I ever imagined it would be; so much more in every sense of the word. It was so much more work, so much more rewarding, so much more time... the list goes on and on. I was so eager to get amp up and running; to have products to sell, and a website for clients to visit - that when things finally calmed down {and my new business to do list wasn't quite so long} I was able to take a long hard look at the online portrayal of amp.  Unfortunately, I was not as happy with the site as I had hoped I would be. Don't get me wrong, the fact that I had a website and products to sell thrilled me, but the details weren't quite right. Starting a business, at least for me, was equal parts exciting and completely overwhelming {i have  a whole different blog post brewing on this topic -- stay tuned!). I wanted the site to look like me - to feel like me. I wanted people who knew me to think that my site, and my brand for that matter, was a reflection of my personal style and aesthetic. I quickly found that sometimes the easiest way to get all your ideas into one space is to create your very own little inspiration board. 

inspiration board

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And so the process began to make the outside look like the inside and I am so so so thrilled with how it turned out. I knew I wanted to have some professional photos done that would again go well with my aesthetic and my brand and y'all..... Alyssa Rosenheck saved the day. She truly is as darling as she is talented. I really cannot wrap my head around how someone is so talented in so many different areas. She took all my thoughts, designs, work and like magic made it all come together in the most delicate, beautiful, amazing way possible. She not only took all the amazing photos- she also helped me decide on an overall look and color palette, and styled every single piece to perfection. Once I received the photos back I instantly felt like my brand finally matched me {inset hallelujah chorus and happy dances a plenty}. I cannot thank sweet Alyssa enough for all her time, talent, and the many laughs we shared during the process. 

All the time, hard work, and energy was so worth it in the end. To have something that reflects you while highlighting your work is an amazing feeling. So friends, let me re-introduce you to I hope, in looking through the site, you get a glimpse into who I am, my passion for this amazing craft, and the love i put into each and every project that comes through the door.